I have been in a resting stage. The call to write in my blog has been shut off. Only last year I was blogging quite a bit. What can I say about my life lately? I have not been able to do artwork. I have not been called to write. I started craving meat after being a vegetarian for over 3 years and started eating meat again. In the stress of wanting to watch something, I did not have the money to do… I even pirated a channeler’s work (who will go unnamed to avoid lawsuits.) Now I have another channeling from him pirated and I am debating actually watching it.
I don’t get what is wrong with me, that I am dropping my highly held morals, and my need to occasionally pretend to be a guru on my blog.
I do not feel depressed, just cut off from the flow. I have continued to listen to audiobooks and bought an Abraham-Hicks book (that isn’t what I pirated) on audio even with my past avoidance of the topic. Part of me hopes, that if I follow the steps of the Law of Attraction, abundance beyond my wildest dreams will follow.
People on the forum on write on are all for Law of Attraction. I figure that there is no harm in the trying. They also post many links to a certain channeler’s recordings pirated.
I have also started using a bit more of Facebook. Still not nearly as much as many people use Facebook.
I have been supporting my family as well. The election hit many of my family particularly hard.
So mainly, I have been using my free time to surf the Internets. I stopped listening to Conspiracy Theory many months ago… maybe 2. The tapering off of a number of posts I write/artwork I create started about 5 months ago. The last three months have been dismal in the area of creativity.
I think there is a direct link between how much I post, and how hopeful I feel. I really wanted to make it as a big blogger. I wanted to prove everyone wrong when they said you should not start Blogging in the hopes it will be a job. Yet, for me, being able to have any hours and to write about things I enjoy seemed like the ideal job.
WordPress is a much friendlier environment than Youtube is. While I knew that having videos would help build my audience, I am not comfortable behind the camera. I would have to deal with comments about my weight and either put on make-up or get fewer views due to lack of make-up.
Perhaps next time I am alone at home, I will attempt another video on Youtube. Perhaps my Internet is fixed enough that it will upload faster.
I have been getting an involuntary muscle twitch. Perhaps I will record that to show my Doctor. It is very small and in my hand. Involuntary movement is sometimes a side effect of my medication. From the very beginning over 10 years ago, I started to get twitches about 3 times a year. This hand twitch has happened 5 times in one month. Along with a back twitch twice in a month. Yet, I am not worried about it, because if it gets bad enough they will be forced to take me off medication in order to get it to stop.
Well… I’m one of your fans. 🙂 The energy for weeks now seems to be switching us to a new track. So a resting/reset stage is needed. You’re doing GREAT! Good luck with youtube… and no makeup is needed! It didn’t come natural for me so I let go; maybe later. Just be, you!! You know this 🙂
Yes, my internet breaking last time I tried was a clear sign that I was ready in Summer, but it is December now.
Rest. It’s all going to work out. 🙂
I wonder if people like us (spiritually sensitive might be a way to describe us) might be effected and linked by a mass sort of energy. It seems that it is not uncommon for me to find similar people being similarly effected. I was following Victor Oddo for a while but lost interest in his videos. He talked about the effects of energy changes in a manner that addressed the collective. Perhaps I will eventually start watching his videos again. I think you are going through a resting period. It is needed to just allow ourselves to be “normal” sometimes (without the expectation to be profound and exceptionally good). You are a spiritual being, but you are still living a human life.
Thank you. I was hoping it would be a phase.