My endless dilemma: Psychic or Schizophrenic


I know I have talked about this often. Yet, it is so confusing because the line between Psychic ability and Schizophrenia can be blurry. I don’t mean to offend any Psychics by comparing them to Schizophrenics, but I am not the only one to have noticed the connections. Joseph Campbell is quoted as saying:
The schizophrenic is drowning in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight. Edgar Cayce made the same observation in his readings.

Due to the similarities, it is a risk that young psychics will get medicated by their parents. Lorna Byrne, an Irish Mystic and author of Angels is my Hair, was told by the angels to hide her abilities when she was young. I think, otherwise, her parents might have medicated her. Who knows how many psychics are being misdiagnosed as mentally ill.

This is a very tricky area because throughout history there has been a line drawn between the mentally ill, and psychics based on the person’s ability to think clearly while seeing/hearing what others cannot. It is that ability to swim that Joseph was talking about. Today, however, people are quickly medicated before they are given the time to see if they can swim. This is because a unmedicated mental illness is very damaging to the brain. A little extra time in observation could be months of suffering, and years of healing.

The trouble is also in that mainstream science writes off psychics as mentally ill. So they never bothered to develop a quick why of distinguishing between psychic ability and mental illness. So the cost of science’s disrespect of the metaphysical has some unfortunate consequences.

If I were to tell a therapist that I can still sense (but not see or hear) Earthbound spirits near me (long story), I might be told to increase my antipsychotic. It would be hard to find a therapist who respects the possibility of it being authentically Earthbound spirits. So I kind of have to decide on my own.

If you saw me Manic, it was clear that I was not able to think clearly while hearing/seeing things that others cannot. Yet, when I was first diagnosed Bipolar, I wanted to find a psychic to argue that I had just had a psychic breakthrough and was not Bipolar at all.

I, however, followed what the Doctors told me to do, and took my medication. I thought of trying Natural ways to control my Bipolar disorder, but Doctors make another Mania seem likely. I was told that each time I had another Mania it would be worse, and ever more likely to happen again. I would damage my brain each time, and suffer an even deeper/longer depression. If I were unmedicated, it was a very high chance that I would have another Mania. It is even a good chance with medication.

I had paranoia at the same time, so was worried that the government was trying to medicate me to control me. Because I was a dangerous psychic who could threaten the social norm. Yet, I saw no way out of this scenario. If I resisted I would be forced to suffer more, and forced to take medication (by the court). I didn’t want to live in that world, so I decided that, even if I was wrong, I would live in the world trusting people. So I pushed down those worries and trusted my Doctor.

So I pretty much gave up without a fight, and I never discovered if I could control my Bipolar naturally. Sometimes I am tempted to take the risk and try, but you might already know this. I also wonder if, over time, I could have learned how to swim. So that if I went off the medication I would be a Mystic and no longer Schizophrenic.

I did not do well without my antipsychotic, but I was on other medications for plain Bipolar. I do not know if these other medications could have been causing the problems that I had.

So do you understand my dilemma? If I go off the medication the cost might be high to my brain and happiness. If I don’t go off the medication I will never know if I can survive without it. Should I go on more medication to block out the sense of Earthbound spirits, or is that really not the mental illness. Is it just psychic ability?

UPDATE: 09.09.16:

I still have not tried going off medication. Even if things like Hypothyroidism Disorder has since been discovered in me. Every Psychiatrist (out of the two I have asked) refuses to even decrease my medication. Yet, as people sometimes read this past article, I felt I should update it, or take it down. It has the potential to be dangerous. I want you to understand that there is no shame in needing the help of medication. There is no shame in any disorder. The only reason that the medication is able to impact your brain is that your Soul allows it to. The focus needs to be less on medication and more on what you can do to feel fulfilled. Grow and trust. Do not let any Spiritual person or writing tell you to go off medication.

I have run into a number of Spiritual people who believe me Psychic instead of Schizoaffective. Yet, this only causes me pain, as my Psychiatrist does not agree. I start feeling trapped, and cry. I think that overall, for me, it is best to just take the medication and not focus on it. Than I do not have to fear losing control if I really need it.

Chances are that if you are searching for the words Psychic or Schizophrenic, you shouldn’t be turning to the Internet for the answers. You need to talk with someone you trust. It might seem that honesty will trap you, but really honesty about what you experience will set you free.

I advise that you seek a professional and speak has honestly as you are able. I have been there, in the mental health system and surfing the Internet for answers. Even if I sometimes feel trapped because I have been so honest about things that others might misunderstand, in the long run, honesty will serve me well.



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  1. Ladies and Gentlemen
    Being phycic is what some do as a way of read on your past pesen and future. This ability comes from insight.
    Physics feel as I do, that it is a gift if used in the manner of which it is intended. This gift is special. In no way has anyone ever said schizophrenia is special! Somewhat like a medium. The difference is a medium connects with loved ones who have passed on. Mediums connect with the dead.
    In no way is schizophrenia related to either of these gifts. Scizophrenia is a serious mental disorder that affects aprox 25 million people in the USA. It is a deteriation of the mind. Is is a lack of chemical balance in the brain. It is a horrifying illness that takes so much of people’s lives away.
    When was the last time you heard or read about a phycic who had these symptoms!
    The most serious is all illnesses in phyciatric mental illness is schizophrenia.
    Is it possible you have a gift, yes it is. Is it possible you are also schizophrenic, yes. But the two are completely different. You are not phycic because you are schizophrenic. You are schizophrenic because of underlining issues.
    1 For example, childhood trauma such as abuse sexually, mental and physical.
    2 Genetics
    3 Trauma, abanndonment, abuse.
    There is no coronation between phycic and schizophrenia, none.
    When is the last time you heard a phycic say I love my life because I’m schizophrenic! I’ve had schizophrenia for nine years and not once have I ever in all the group’s I’ve been in heard one person say they were phycic and life is fabulous! All phycics I’ve ever known, love what they do and it’s a gift of love to help others.
    Schizophenia is not a gift! It can be used as a gift to help others but no one has ever said, I’m schizophrenic and it’s a gift. It’s quite the opposite. The most complex mental illness There is is schizophrenia.
    There is so much heartache and torment we live with everyday of our lives.
    Reasearch clearly shows by way of brain studies and research, those of us who SUFFER with schizophrenia, that it is what is called the split mind. Meaning so much damage has been done to the mind that the mind has what I will call two different ways of thinking. The schizophrenic side has split away from the rest of the mind. This is where hallucinations, phycosis, episodes, paranoia, for many, including myself, a very scary state of mind where we are catatonic!
    Please educate your self on schizophrenia.
    It’s really sad, the stigmas that come with this illness. The miss information that people put out there that is no where close to what this mental illness is doing to millions of Americans and all over the world.
    Some people think Schizophrenia is a war on evil and good. Nope, wrong again! Schizophrenia is a mental illness that takes one out of ten lives. It may seem like a war, but it’s not. The split mind that has been damaged does not think clearly! Things are so awful that we have to use everything in are ability, including anti phycotics to help the damaged split mind. To help us cope. To help try to live a productive life. There are many schizophrenics who are completely disabled because of the most complex, worst mental illness there is.
    A gift of a phycic, absolutely not.
    The most serious of all mental illnesses in the phyciatric mental field, YES!
    It’s like telling someone with heart cease you are phycic beacuse you have heart cease. This doesn’t make sense does it. Of course it doesn’t. Why, because just like schizophrenia or heart disease, there is no coralation to either life long illnesses and phycic ability.
    Please be kind to those with mental illness and know the difference.
    Please research schizophrenia and educate your self.
    Even though I have schizophrenia I am always researching.
    Those of us with Schizophrenia need your support and love. Most all schizophrenics live a reclusive life. Alot of Scizophrenics are scared of many things in the world. Most schizophrenics do not have much in the way of love and support unless we are in groups with others who suffer and are needing love and support. It’s really a lonely way to live. I know I’m my family I do not get the support I have pleaded for.
    My mom is the only one who is here for me 24/7.
    Without her and my groups where we can talk about our illness I don’t know where I would be.
    Be please be kind and love a schizophrenic today…Thank you…

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