I have been debating Grad School vs Writing career. I want to move forward with my life, and there is not better way I can feel this way then going back to school. If I look at my Dreams, I often find myself in school. Dreams are signs, right?
I do not want to fall into too much debt after college, so I am going to take my time. I will apply to Scholarships, which will give me plenty of chances to write. Yet, to apply for many Scholarships, I have to take the GRE. So I am going to sign up for a date in September to take the test. Around the time I get my scores back, will be around the time I need to apply for must Scholarships.
My primary focus will be on the GRE until September. Bipolar disorder can damage the Math part of the brain, so I will need to focus on rebuilding my Math ability. I was once good at Math, but disuse has eroded my ability. I hope I can get it back.
After the GRE, I will have to decide on Library Sciences or another field. My focus now should be on getting as good of a score as I can. I am sorry that I will not be posting as much, or building a quality webpage. I might end up with time to post at work, and I might get caught up with procrastinating. Yet, right now I do not have that problem, and hope to stay away from it.
The change in medication has increased my energy and motivation. I have no excuse to not pursue a future. I could attempt Manifesting a successful site, but am not sure that this is what I want. The stress of making a living of something could take away the fun aspect. I would be forced to continuously post, and adapt my writing to what readers like.
Of course, my life cannot be all study, I would burn out, so who knows how much I will be still researching New Age concepts. Yet, I will not have to do it to the extreme that I would need to do for a Blog.
I am sorry that I will not be forging my own path, but am someone who needs the guidance of college. I do not feel myself going anywhere without a path (for a while). The New Age topics I research are all about forging your own path, and I will try to keep this in mind. Perhaps the world needs a Librarian with knowledge of metaphysical topics, so maybe I can find my own way on the path of education.
I am off to pursue happiness in the best way I know how. It is an expensive way, but maybe I can use Manifesting techniques to keep costs low. Manifesting requires action for most effectiveness. Got to go.