Even after watching Teal Scotts video, “Feeling Lost and Ten Steps to Becoming Found,” it is hard to put faith into the Unique path over the Traditional one. I had been thinking of becoming a Librarian, but had a pit in my stomach that this was wrong. My childhood dream was to be a writer, so I looked into teaching myself writing, but soon was discouraged on this path. Writing wasn’t turning out to be what I had imagined. There is so much need for confidence in one’s writing, and I faced other challenges. So I decided that maybe what I needed was a different kind of writing. Perhaps I could conquer Blog writing instead.
Yet, I had been Blogging for a long time, and never created a success. This Blog, Intuitive Voyage, is the closest I have ever come. If I were to pursue Blogging instead of Librarianship or Fiction, I would need to make money off of it. I recognize that I am still far away from this goal. Plus, I see that making money off a of Metaphysical Blog as a difficult thing to do. I have noticed that many such Blogs include Tarot Readings, Life Coaching, Medical Intuitive Readings, and any other side services. Yet, I do not want to take other people’s life choices into my amateur hands. I cannot offer these services.
Many months ago, I got an Angel Card Reading done. The Psychic was certified in Doreen Virtue’s cards, but I was still uncertain about how much faith I should put on the reading. The reading only cost $20, so I felt like supporting her despite my doubts. The Psychic had just finished emailing a Librarian before reading my request for a reading on whether I should pursue Information Sciences. She took this as a huge sign that the Angels were in support of it. I was told the Angels were in support of me becoming a Librarian.
Despite not having total confidence in the reading, it confused me. I expected the Angels not to support it because it wasn’t pursuing my dream. Is there something that I am missing in the equation?
So I have been thinking about pursuing both my Blog and a degree in Information Sciences (Librarianship). I would have less time to devote to my Blog, but would have slightly more stability. It would be only slightly more stability, because there is no guarantee of employment, and I might end up with huge college loans instead.
The Paths are before me. Do I put faith into Manifestation, and whole heartedly pursue my childhood dream (even if I have never understood why it was my dream)? Or does my dream become more like my hobby, that I pursue outside of work?
As for what the Angels want me to do… I have no idea.
The picture below looks pretty random, but it has Angel feathers, so it is an Angel. I didn’t know what I was drawing until just now.