I suddenly need to write. I am not sure what I need to write, but I am kind of searching with the words. In my brain was this feeling that I might have inspiration to write, but I couldn’t think about the topic. A train whistle distracted me as I was writing, suddenly all I could think about writing was, “I hear a train whistle.”
I have been thinking about things I would like to have for this Blog. One is a small purse portable camera (my phone camera isn’t good quality), and just yesterday I was thinking that a small Wacom tablet would be nice. I am not sure how much I would use it, but I need to start thinking of ways to get images for this site. I do not want to spend too much time creating images, but my site certainly needs them.
I still refuse to just copy images off of other pages, because it feels like stealing. As a former art student I should be able to create my own. I just need to reawaken creativity. Right now, I will get ready to make an image, and then not be able to think of what would fit with the post I have just written. Its been too many years since I had to produce artwork at all. I also want quick images, so it might be a while before I have quality images.
I do have some back up images that I created for fun, but they are mainly just cute pictures of Animals, flowers or the sun. They not very good, I was just relearning how to make images.
I am suddenly putting more effort into Intuitive Voyage because I asked the Angels help in creating a successful one. I now have hope that it is possible, but I will need to reawaken skills that haven’t been used in a long time, such as my art skills.
The story of why I turned away from artwork is a complex one I do not completely understand. Inspiration seemed to just leave me the moment I was diagnosed Bipolar. At first I could blame depression, but the inspiration never returned. I started writing more, and drawing less. So I guess the way I expressed my creativity shifted.
I just need to remember what I once had. I am capable of looking at a blank page, putting down a few random lines, and then seeing an image within the lines. It just doesn’t work like it used to, but, if I did it before, I can do it again. Something has blocked the process. How can I unblock it?